Please Understand Me...

PERSONALITIES SUCK...

Now that I got that out of the way...  do I feel any better?         NO...

My date of birth makes me a Scorpion.
Scorpio is one of the most misunderstood signs of the zodiac. Because of its incredible passion and power, Scorpio is often mistaken for a fire sign. ... Scorpios simply know what they want and aren't afraid to work hard and play the long game to get it.

What makes this water sign unique is its distinctive venomous sting. Like their celestial spirit animal, the scorpion, Scorpios lie in wait and strike when least expected. Life is a game of chess for these calculating water signs, who are constantly plotting several steps ahead in order to orchestrate an eventual checkmate. This doesn't mean their intentions are necessarily nefarious. Scorpios simply know what they want and aren't afraid to work hard and play the long game to get it.

If that wasn't bad enough, I am also an INTJ.
INTJs are analytical problem-solvers, eager to improve systems and processes with their innovative ideas. They have a talent for seeing possibilities for improvement, whether at work, at home, or in themselves.

Often intellectual, INTJs enjoy logical reasoning and complex problem-solving. They approach life by analyzing the theory behind what they see, and are typically focused inward, on their own thoughtful study of the world around them. INTJs are drawn to logical systems and are much less comfortable with the unpredictable nature of other people and their emotions. They are typically independent and selective about their relationships, preferring to associate with people who they find intellectually stimulating.

Famous INTJs include Hillary Clinton, Al Gore, Bill Gates, Dwight Eisenhower, Alan Greenspan, Ulysses S. Grant, Stephen Hawking, John Maynard Keynes, Ayn Rand, Isaac Asimov, Lewis Carroll, Cormac McCarthy, and Sir Isaac Newton.

Yes...  it is interesting that all these people (above) were INTJ's but that does not make it any better for me...  and, while that may be a little bit selfish, it is nonetheless true; I have been misunderstood all my life...   and, for a while there, I used that to my advantage whenever I could to manipulate relationships I wanted to manipulate because I could.  Hard to feel sorry for someone who acts like that...  I know...  but, it has been difficult for me to relate to people even when I wanted to relate to them because I saw the world differently than they saw it...  and, what really pissed me off was the fact that they did not really want to listen to me explain why I felt the way I did or why I was different from them...   they just didn't seem to give a shit.